You speak of yourself as if you have no worth. And farther, that there is nothing in your life that you can look forward to. Once there glowed an exuberance in your heart, now it dim and barren. For so long it was left without a direction that slowly it began to dissipate. Such is the natural course of the uninspired soul. Then you spoke about death; how on those occasions where it might come, you shall not have the will to resist it. Life has lost its meaning, and that black eternity becomes a solace. “I have nothing more to live for,” you thus concede.
Silly one, you are mistaken on so many counts that I can hardly stand to watch you tumble further into this abyss you have created for yourself. May I begin by reminding you that you have all the worth in world; to your parents most of all, who raised you from the time you babbled and rolled to the woman of posture and independence you now are. To your friends too, you are always a most colorful delight. These, I assure you, are nothing but the truths. It is only because of your upset that these do not appear to you as apparent.
Now, of the problem of there being nothing to look forward to. I have several times met with this problem, and several times, I despair. I also know that to instruct you, in those times where you feel purposeless, to find purpose in the ordinary, in the many pockets of life, is no helpful instruction at all. It is something else, a worm burrowed deep inside, that causes the feeling. And so the cure too must be found from within yourself, and not in the words of others, however kindly and wise they may be. As for myself, I have learnt to cast out the worm by a zealous explication of my thoughts – it seems that they can only survive in the shadows, in obscurity. I do not believe it shall be long before you too find a similar method of expulsion.
And so, onwards! Onwards with a hearty tread and a hearty confidence! However you may be, be your own source of experience. Throw off your discontent about your nature. Forgive yourself, your own self. You have it in your power to merge everything you have lived through – false starts, errors, delusions, passions, your loves and your hopes- into your goal, with nothing left over.